I woke up early the morning on my weekly half-day just to bake a cake for you. I thought you would accept my humble apologies and bury the hatchet deep down under the ground - J overestimated everything. Including our love.

I am really... Sad.

And when I run out on adjectives and become less dramatic with my emotions, something has definitely got to be wrong.

FML.



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Cherryboom.

I really wish i could blog more often!!!

Sigh, i still can't achieve the blogging vibe.

I miss typing with my macbook. Okay the current one is fine with me but i just miss everything about it. Okay forget it, move on.

So i still have a few hundred of you coming back here but aiyah, there's nothing here. I just don't feel it anymore.

Plus i am working now. I barely even have the time for myself, baby, friends and family. No more social life or fun. I am not complaining. Work has its fair share of fun too. Just have to get used to it.
I guess.

I am feeling pretty angsty now. Because my maid is blabbering non-stop. Mummy doesn't know how to apply the faux lashies onto her lids. Baby is missing. No, i don't feel like replying him. I don't know what to do.

Sometimes i really do feel like i don't belong here. Here is where i also don't know.

I really need to do something productive. I am angry. Roar.

Hi babies, i am back to blogging. That's if you believe me.

Hehehe but this blog is now revived!! But not on a daily basis i guess? I have to do an advertorial(as promised since months ago) so i have to resuscitate this digital journal. Mehhhhz. I miss blogging though.

Oh regarding livejournal. Hahaha i myself knew from the start that i wouldn't be a loyal user of it. I just had to say that to lure some rats away meow. Oh anwyay a stray cat ate my hamster. Son of a hello kitty ni qu si ba.

Die. A lot of people say my chinese gone case. I think i could speak rather well in the past when i was still doing a bit of mother tongue here and there. Now ah....

NI QU SI BA.

When i am broke, i like to say, wo shi qiong guang dan yi li qiu.

One ball of broke shit.

And double die, my english now like tokong only. Damn broken hahaha too bad.

And my GPA combo die, i am either going to,

A) Retain;
B) Transfer course in NYP;
C) Transfer to RP;
D) Quit school, which my parents allow. Weird...

I know la, everybody 'boycotts' RP. Ya la, smart people go SP NP NYP TP, dumb slackerish people go RP and rot away 3 years of their lives. You all ah, always anyhow condemn people. I really don't like it when people stereoptype and insert people into those various catergories and start mocking. How frustrating.

Okay i admit RP isn't the perfect choice. In fact, i didnt choose it in any of my 12 choices last year.

And saying all this shit just sounds like i am loving RP because i have no choice.


But actually, i don't really bother. I think i am dumb and can't study. Hahaha i am a loser.

Let's talk about it when the time comes.

TILL THEN.

Oh anyway, will be working tomorrow at... FEP.

I am truly a loser. Hor? Rhetorical though.

I don't know what took me so long to derive to this decision:

I am shifting to livejournal for good.

I think i definitely need at least an inch of space to breathe.

So long, blogspot readers!

Catch me over here.

xx.

This space is in need of a proper update.

Soon.

p/s: Have i mentioned i have looooonnnggg black hair now?

Advertorial is coming its way!

Edited:

1) Okay, SI just ended.

2) I know that girl was mean to have said that "I don't know why the bow girl is in"

3) Don't have to report to me, i don't take it to heart.

4) I was tone-deaf when i sang Love Song. My mind was completely shut down. Completely.

5) I kept covering my face because i was awfully humiliated by my own performance.

6) My hair looked greasy because i hadn't showered in 2 days prior to that performance.

7) I AM NOT IN THE TOP 24.

8) Note: The above liner is typed in caps.

9) This will be the last sentence i am producing regarding Singapore Idol.

10) No more drama, okay?

Finally.

2 weeks worth of State of Absence aka MC are rejected. (after 3 attempts)

KNN TTM.

I need to find an alternative before this semester ends. Think, MDIS?

Urg.

p/s: MY DADDY IS LISTENING TO HOKKIEN GANG RAP ON YOUTUBE HAHA.

p/ss: I know i said to leave this space, but it's healthy to do a little rant once a while.

p/sss: iDear is getting old on age! But she's only about 5 months old and is already lagging :<

p/ssss: iDear is the name of my macbook.

*Edited:

1. A Person who, being unable to express his anger through physical violence (owning to their physical weakness, lack of bravery and/or conviction in real life), instead manifests said emotions through the text-based medium of the internet, usually in the form of aggressive writing that the Keyboard Warrior would not (for reasons previously mentioned) be able to give form to in real life.  2. The term is a combination of the word 'keyboard' (the main tool by which the person expresses his/her latent rage) and 'warrior' (due to the warrior-like aggression, tendency towards violence, headstrong nature and propensity towards brute force as a means of resolving conflict rather than more subtle means dependant on finesse).  3. The Keyboard Warrior seeks to use the power imbued in his 'weapon' to effect death and destruction (in a strictly-metaphorical sense) upon his foes (other virtual identities he has encountered on the internet). In essence, the keyboard (ie. text input ability) allows the keyboard warrior to manifest his true warrior nature in a safe and removed environment, from which no real-life repercussions .  4. Keyboard Warriors are generally identified by unneccessary rage in their written communications, and are regarded as 'losers' by other virtual identities on the internet. Elysia, don't be a stupid girl anymore okay? We may consider loving you hehehe. *Edited x2: I feel so upset after watching SI. I know i did bad. But i didn't know i would sound so horrendous on tv. And i feel... When i saw my idol friends get booted out, AGAIN on tv.  I feel....... I can't describe anything for now. I just think i may need a mini hiatus. Love that idea, haters? p/s: will continue accepting friend requests on facebook till one day... all will be gone. Till then. *Edited x3: You haters hate me for the weirdest reasons on earth. - Thick eyeliner ( WTF Level : 10/10. You people have a whole load of lookism to deal with. Stop judging people like that) -Me exposing my tattoos (WTF Level: 10/10. This is the most absurd thing i have ever heard in my life. More like... Speechless already.) -Me looking like an ahlian  (Wtf level: 8/10. Obviously, i am not. If you still insist i am one, you should really get out of your bubble and look at this world) -Being a SI reject. (Wtf level: 10/10. SI rejected me because i am not a strong vocalist, not because of my appearance or tattoos, assholes) - Acting cute on national tv (Wtf level: 8/10. You don't know me well enough to think it's a facade done to be 'famous' on national television. Genuine or not, only friends know.) - Getting attention overnight. (WTF Level: 10/10. So you implying i chose it? Where did you put your brains?) -Putting videos on my blog. (WTF Level: 10/10. Hmm, i think i should be condemned if i were the one who uploaded those SI videos. But apparently/evidently, i wasn't. No, you don't even have brains) Am going to create a new facebook account since i can't be bothered to select people whom i should delete. This time round, friends only. Something is wrong with all of you. I am out of here, period.

To those who missed the season premiere of SI3.
p/s: i want to die.

A loser.

A failure.

A weakling.

I always have been.

Leave me alone.

Edited:

The people whom i thought i could speak to,  disappeared at the moment i needed them.

Louis disappeared, my friends..... I honestly don't know how many genuine friends i have.

The people whom i never imagined i would talk to, were the ones whom moved me to tears - My parents.

I cried in front of them. They giggled at me for being such a weakling.

But they wrapped their arms around me and comforted me.

I cried even harder. 

I've been a huge letdown to them for 17 years of my life.

I'm sorry mom and dad, i love you and i am sorry.

Tonight i cried my heart out. 

But who heard me?

Edited again:

Almost 7 in the morning.

Haven't caught a wink.

Just me staring at my phone..

Edited at 11/09 10:30 PM:

Sick and fucking depressed.

Tears and more tears and more tears and more and more and more tears.

31 JULY!

Okay, gotta admit - I'm a camwhore!

Met up with my groupmates are the national library to do some work.

I know it sounds like a miracle but i did contribute okay.

Not an empty vessel!

After the group discussion, i had to meet this monster.

To kill time.

And waste money.

She's a witch with one spoilt eye. Hehehehe

I'm an ahlian with exploded mushroom hair.

"I'm not ahlian"

Sorry Charming Tatum, but i have to say that,

It is a boring show.

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7 August!

Swap & $hop event at Powerhouse!

Picture credits: Shili and Kat!

Nini!

Nini + Kat!

Omg, i spotted Gabby(the hot white chick/idol) in the photo only when i reached home!! :<

And i think you're really awesome on idol last night!

Indeed like father like daughter hehe.

And your dog..... Pinch pinch.

Neenee and ronron :>

If you didn't attend this flea or stop by Eating Zombie/Whatisdope, laugh at yourself now hehe!

Ronron scratching her backside, i like hehe!

I have alot more pictures to upload but i am getting tired!

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1)

"HAHAHA, Rachel Gan; The Ah Lian or maybe not. I thought her segment was hillarious but the television ads gave her away too much. She came by with two pony tails, a pretty red ribbon in her hair and a sexy off shoulder dress. For a moment there, good girl image gone all sultry but hey WE ARE NOT COMPLAINING YEAH! I didn’t get to see her tattoo at all because i swore she swung faster than a merry-go-round. I just saw random black marks sprawled all over her back. What’s cute about her? It’s her cutesy wutesy voice getting all defensive when she’s being labelled an“Ah Lian”. The most remembered tagline of hers,
“But i am not an ah liannn..”

I’ve got no comments on that but we’ll see what the public has to say yeah. HER AMAZING VOICE blew almost all of us away. From Rosie Phua to Rihanna, that’s one hell of a voice. Well Rachel, we need|want to see you more in the future episodes!"

Credits: x

HAHAHHAA ROSIE PHUA!!!!! :<

2)

"Rachel 'I'm Not Ah Lian'.

Nothing wrong with being Lian right Flo? :) Clever move buttering up Flo (After Dick called Flo a 'Lian', Rachel defends. "She's not Ah Lian, she looks so sophisticated.")

After getting a Golden Ticket, I'm-Not-Ah-Lian says,"Real wan lehhhh!"<-- not Lian meh? Lian just admit Lian lah!

Anyway, I actually thought she was pretty cute and could sing. She shall from now on be known here as Ribbon Lian."

Credits: x

Singlish = Ahlian.

Okay lor hehehe.

My friends told me about the sites above.

I did not google myself.

And people from threads/forums, please let me off.

I know i am short/fat and not talented, 

don't remind me.

Stop asking if i am in the top 24! You have to stay tune to channel 5 on every wednesday at 8pm, to find out more! (bad foreboding...)

To those who blogged about me, thank you for being not-so-mean!

xx, ciaoz!